I was born in the beautiful city of Almaty (formerly Alma-Ata), Kazakhstan and lived there the first nine years of my life. My roots forever remain there albeit I forgot and felt uprooted for over 30 years after my family moved to live in Germany in 1987.
30 years I felt like not belonging and not knowing what to do on this Planet called Earth.
In 2017 it all changed when I traveled exactly after 30 years back to my ancestral land and people.
A long trip with the Transsibirian Railway all through Russia, Kazakhstan and Mongolia, while researching different embroidery traditions and symbolism and stitching and planting tree seeds while traveling.I came more and more home to myself while being on travels for over 10, 000km al together, this is nearly half of the world.
A blind Shamana and also a Kazakh embroidery elder confirmed to me: "finally you came home and your roots and ancestors are rejoicing that you finally rooted yourself home in our ancestral lineage of Germany, Ukrainian, Kazakh and Siberian roots.
Oh what a joy and reconnective moment, finally feeling whole and at home. That feeling remained and deepened every time I continue to embroider or practice intentional creativity like with this doll that emerged and came to live during a masterclass within the Womb centered Healing Temple. You can still watch the recording in the Facebookgroup.
This doll is my Goddess of Kazakh Love and my heart's intention to attract my other half to return back to my roots in Almaty, Kazakhstan. She carries herbs inside that I collected from the Alataumountains, Shymbulak in Almaty, Kazakhstan when I visited my family there last year.
Last year my dad and my son came with me as well. My son was 9 just before turning 10, the same age like I was before I left my country of origin Kazakhstan to live in Germany. And my dad has returned back for the first time since he left for Germany 32 years ago. He is of German background but was brought to Siberia and was born there straight after the WWII in 1950. He lived there the first 15 years of his life before moving to Kazakhstan. So for him returning back and making peace with countries that have kept him and family like prisoners, has brought about a lot of healing on many levels. I will never forget how he stood there in his family home where he met my now deceased mother and speaking with a neighbor that he didn't see in 32 years. Special reweaving and healing of many ancestral threads.
Albeit my mother died 14 years ago, all her family still live in Almaty, Kazakshtan. I receive the message from her often that she died from cancer because she left her roots behind and was never able to experience that kind of reweaving healing work.I am wealthy in my different ancestral roots and no longer uprooted and overwhelmed. As a destiny weaver I bring together ancestral threads from my different ancestral roots and weave them into the new emergent tapestry of humanity. Like I write about my vision in my book "The Wyrding Way:the mysterious art of weaving your own destiny":
"Co-creative destiny weaving is my vision with conscious individuals holding their own unique destiny threads, bringing together ancestral threads and weaving those into an evolutionary tapestry of humanity. Because you and me came here for a purpose. To evolve humanity. Each destiny thread at a time".
Now that the ancestral threads and those from my father, mother and my son's side have been united, I hear the call of attracting by beloved who wants to lead a co-creative partnership of life and bizness together with me. A new form of wholemates who join genius without the division of life / work. I envision that we both run an online /e-commerce business and a foundation for the preservation of all embroidered arts around the world together. Someone who similarly like me has many different ancestral roots but likes to deepen those in Almaty, Kazakhstan near to my favorite mountain Shymbulak. Just like in my painting of this favorite place where my Womb Doll of Kazakh Love stands on the mountain top.
Just like we can (re)weave many threads, symbols and desires in a doll or fabric or canvas, we can co-creatively weave our destinies. This is the Wyrding Way to me like the title of my book. Wyrding meaning weaving. All my co-creative circles are based on weaving of threads, be it through doll making like a self embroidered Womb Doll Matryoshka, Beregini Goddesses Symbols, Shamanic Dress, Paintings or embroidered cloths. Those are rituals of (re)weaving past, present and future. Just like the three Norns in Norse Mythology who are therefore on the Front Cover of my book.
I offered a few co-creative stitching circles during my 13 Moon Bio Mystical Womb Healing Apprenticeship and written an article about how that relates to womb healing and creative power from within:
Even though the apprenticeship is almost over, I look forward to do more of those co-creative circles of telling stories and opening up space to rewrite them while also creating something new and sacred with our hands. Until the next circle, please check my offerings here:
https://erikaamaizing.me/servicesandpricing
The idea of a Story-Crafts Cafe/ Circle is emerging. Anyone here interested in that?